I'm sorry, that i've kind of spread some flu germs to my friends :(
Rahimah and Daniel :P

I feel very guilty, that i've been telling lies and talking bad about ppl. For my own benefits. Be it to relieve the unhappiness in me, or the relieve myself from doing more work. I dislike the way that i'm behaving now.

I'm not expressing my true self.





(credits to artist, geraldine bai :D)

I'm also feeling very guilty, that i'm not able to return the same amount of love or friendship that some ppl shower on me. No, honestly, ....

I feel very guilty, that i didn't even wanted to go to my tg's concerts.

I'm a betrayer and an disloyal friend.

I am disappointed that i'm unable to show my most truthful inner self to everyone. I'm wearing different masks in front of different ppl.

The masks that i wear in front of ppl,

Some are full head masks, that are intensively decorated and painted with smiles, care and enthusiasm, used to cover the all negative feelings beneath.



Some are just white drama masks, that reveals the eyes, the windows of one's soul.



While some are only plain facial masks, soft and delicate, that can only hide the little flaws on the skin and can be removed once the time is ripe.



You may be wondering which category you are in....

I believe that everyone, to some extent has some form of camouflage, trying to keep some personal things in the dark. They may or may not mean to do so, but it's more comfortable for them to face their friends or the people around them that way.

For some, they may even start to discard their old masks and reveal a new mask that is more than what they used to have. An extreme change. But nobody knows for sure, who's wrong or right, what is getting better or getting worse.

I remember someone once told me. Change is a constant in this person's life. I wonder how much have i changed from the past... Am I the only one that has been stagnant all these while or is the change for this person and all the other ppl around me been too fast for me to catch up.

Is this good or bad?

There is no one who can tell me this very answer that many of us are looking for...